Bloody Birthday

title: bloody birthday | oneshoot fanfic - Uruha's Mind
author: ladieskouyou
genre: romance, angst, dark, murder
warnings: manxman, no porns, really bad english
rating: PG-15
band: the GazettE
Disclaimer: they're own party themselves and management. I just own the story line. This story is purely fictitious. If there is a common name of figures or the storylines, it's all just coincidence.
summary: "Love of what? you are The Biggest Rivals in my life!" Aoi's POV
comment: I don't intend make Uruha feels miserable on his birthday. fufu~ forgive my bad english btw >/\<






The winter is so cruel for me. The snow that fell touched my fragile skin. They freeze. Freeze the blood clot that sticking and flows out of my weak body. I was stunned for a moment. Pursed my lips that want to said. Why am I still survive?

I drag my limp foot and keep walking. If this is my last day inhaling the smell of ice air, I don't want to go in silence, and regrets. I have to bring my body fly with peace and filled with smiles of happiness.

Where is my happiness?

My happiness has been stained with a betrayal. He has been transformed into a creature full of envy. All the love that he gave, his desire, and his passion that he breathe through in my empty heart, that's only a black mask to vent his pent envy.

"Aoi, I love you ..."

"Hey, what's wrong Uru? Why did you suddenly say it?"

He hugged and stroked my hair gently. He lowered his head and kissed my lips gently.

"Of course.. I love you, Uru-chan .. Calm down .. I will not to leave you."

"Hh .. hh .."

I stop my steps for a moment. My body was getting limp and I almost felt a little air is inhaled. I was thrown in my last view before the time comes. I could feel his warm body when he hugged me. I could feel his soft lips when he kiss me. However, I can't look his dark eyes. I regret it. Because nobody can dodge on eyes language that implied.

"Love of what? You are the biggest rivals in my life!"

***

flashbacks starting

If I know the content inside your head, I will not decide to loving you ...

I entered the studio easily. I saw no one has been there and start the activity as usual. I snorted softly. Increasingly, I feel the awkwardness that seen with some of my other partners. I feel being ignored. I didn't got it what is on their mind.

Since my special relationship with Aoi exposed, Ruki, Reita and Kai have a fairly long distance away on me. Are they reluctant to talk and work with me who having a weird-feeling? I want choose to ending this weird-feeling that has grown so deep. However, I couldn't do it. My love is too deep with the handsome man like Aoi.

Trap Trap ..

A footstep sounded in my ear after when I'm fixing my instrument in the studio. I turned spontaneously and found someone had smiled sweetly on there. I saw the love.

"You are come so early, Uru-chan .."

Aoi came over and hugged me tightly. He played my hair and kissing my neck that I gave to him. He continued to kiss some part of my body until heared a little sigh that made me tremble.

"Nggh .. .. Forgive me, Aoi-kun. We're in a public place .."

I release my arm and pushed Aoi softly. I saw he was still smiling tease me and move on to touch a guitar which stood beside us. I looked down ashamed. I was speechless and couldn't return it well. I can only stay in my silent and look at him who is playing guitar very impressive.

"Aoi-kun, do you remember what's happen on today?"

I was provoke a question to test him. To test how much he loved me.

"Hmm, on 9... Wait for a minutes.. Ah, yeah! Congratulations for you to have earned praise and emails that piled up. Well .. I know my guitar skills far away under your skill and of course.. only you who are entitled to get all of that."

What?

What's wrong with that tone? I hear a little jealousy was tucked inside. What is it?! This isn't what I wanted to hear! I just wanted to hear he said happy birthday to me!

"Uru-chan .. What's the matter?"

"Nh .. ah, never mind."

I'm stay in my silent again and wrestle with what I was thinking. Why do I feel Aoi has changed? Is there a special award that I got behind the switch so that he hates me?

"Aoi, I love you ..."

"Hey, what's wrong Uru? Why did you suddenly say it?"

Aoi was shocked for a moment and put the guitar that he had been playing. He got up and took me into his arms. He hugged and stroked my hair gently. He lowered his head and kissed my lips gently.

"Of course.. I love you, Uru-chan .. Calm down .. I will not to leave you."

I cried in his arms  that felt warm. I don't know, I don't understand for what these tears was shed. I like going to go far away. I will go to the place where only I can reach alone.

 ***

That last sentence is very stab. Destroy my beautiful dream at night.

"I must kill him!"

"Hey, Aoi! Are you crazy? we know you really hate him .. But .."

My footsteps stopped right beside my fourth friends's room are talking. I can see the streaks anxiety of Ruki, Reita and Kai are trying to hold the Aoi act.

Killing? kill who?

"He'll just going to complicate our career path, you know?! I can't accept if everybody is amazed with our band just because of his presence!"

"Yes .. I know. But I just wanna us to change his position. Not to kill him!"

Reita push Aoi's body angrily. He didn't ever think a cunning plan of a handsome man in front of him. And me? I'm still staying with my legs that were tremble. I'm still guessing who the 'someone' who would be killed by the man who I loved.

"Why are you so defend him, Reita?! Say something to me! You love Uruha too, aren't you?!

What?

Ruki had just said my name with the tears that wanted to shed. What's wrong in here? Why is my name came out suddenly in the midst of their conversation?

"Reita! Answer me!"

Ruki hardened his voice increasingly  and eventually spilling grain that flows behind his eyes. He pounded Reita's body angrily. As if can't to accept the reality that will be revealed.

"Maybe .. I do not know. But I always feel blush when I see him .. .."

"Fuck you, Reita!! I hate you! Aoi, I'll support you! Completely! Kill him! Kill Uruha like a plan that has you ready for this!"

Prang!

I dropped a cup of hot chocolate that I was holding not accidentally. I ran away from the place that I descend earlier. My heart is broken. All the anger and sense of wonder mingled into one. is that shallow of their mindset? Just because an award, it can blind the eyes of their hearts?

Where the meaning of friends who they gave? I didn't ever to think, that I misguided by their kindness.

That tears ..

Maybe this is the last night of my happiness.

***

"Let doing everything that you want.. I love you."

I wear my clothes and pulled back his body that not covered with a piece of cloth too. I saw he was very exhausted by what he did with me earlier and wiped the sweat that flowed freely his the body. He smiled. I saw the usual smile. The smile which I thought was a love.

"What do you mean, dear? Please help me to wear this shirt , ok.

I shook my head quickly. I grabbed a knife lying on the desk lamp. I can't hold back the tears that have been flooded. My heart was too sick. I wanted to end it.

"Aoi, come on! doing everything that you want. Please .. I've given myself just for you. I .."

"Hey .. what are you talking about, Uru-chan?"

Aoi wearing his shirt and jeans then walking near me. I'm afraid. I'm afraid to admit that the love during the time he gave was a falsehood. I'm scared to think that he is a crook man who had been I proud. I closed my eyes resignedly. And let the knife that I held pulled slowly.

" You are someone who dropped a cup of hot chocolate, aren't you?"

I still close my eyes. A moment of silence. I would never say any word to answer.

"Well .."

CRASH.

My body out of balance. My eyes widened when I felt the unbearable pains around my stomach. I see it. Seeing his smile. Still the same smile. The smile which I thought was love.

Aoi captures my body that fell into his arms deftly. My eyes felt heavy and wanted to get closed. my breath was slender. But I want feel his warm body more.

"You sa.. .. .. You said you love me .. ."

"Love of what? You are the biggest rivals in my life!"

I release myself from his arms and holding my stomach that had been drain a thick red liquid and continue flowing. Now I've found the real answer. My gaze is empty. I was so surprised by what I received on the night that should be nice.

I walked stumped and trying to hold my body which want to fall back. Everything has ended. But I still had time to see the figure who smiled and waved his hand to me before I get out of this sadden place.

"Happy birthday, Uru-chan .."

flashbacks ended

***

"Happy birthday, Uru-chan"

I smiled for the last time. closing my eyes and threw myself at a place that unknown. Challenging the cold that so piercing my body. Let the blood is still flowing. And waiting for something to come pick me up.

Until this moment I still love him. And the last happiness I get is.. when he said 'happy birthday' on my special day.



The end.