Title : “Distress and coma”
Author : Kireina Kouyou
Genre : Romantic, tragic, smut, angst
Rating : R/15
Stars : The GazettE (all member) & Alice Nine (Shou as “Doctor” & Saga as “Suster”)
Pairing : Ruki x Uruha
Feb 27, 2009
Dr, Shou : “Hmm, I’m sorry. I’m really sorry..”
Dr. Shou seems like regret and this has seen from his eyes. In the white room which spread medicines smell, there’re two men is sitting in their mind ownself.
A short man, with a little fat body covered his face with his hand. Once in a while, he pulled a long breath. He seems couldn’t accept Dr. Shou’s speak.
... “ how long time is there, doc?” he spoke and break the silent.
Dr. Shou : ” I don’t know Ruki. Only a week counting, maybe.” this young doctor is really worried waiting response a man who still in front of him.
Ruki : “ what?!!! Why so fast!? Oh no!!”
Ruki shocked with something that Dr. Shou’s tell. He’s sitting again weakly. “ only a week counting.” He spoke in his mind. “ that’s a sign my engaged...”
***
Ruki : “ Hey, where are you going?” Ruki held someone’s hand that he is inviting him to speak. A man just shake of his head slowly.
Ruki : “ Uruha, answer me.” Ruki wiped cheek’s someone who names Uruha gently. And his another hand still held his hand, so that he couldn’t go anywhere.
Uruha : “ Ah, I just looking a fresh air.” He smiles thin. His eyes showed hidden something.
Ruki seeing Uruha deeply. He looking for something that made him wonder. Ruki pulled a short breath and tense his held. Then, he hugged Uruha tightly.
Ruki : “ You can’t lying me, Uru. Tell me, there is something wrong with u?”
Uruha still shake of his head slowly in Ruki’s hugged. He want to run away and leaved Ruki. He want to alone now. Alone and dissolved by something which he is hidden it.
Uruha : “Hmm, I’m gonna to Apartment now, better. Colder in here.” Uruha loose his hugged slowly and touch Ruki’s cheek with his hand.
Ruki : “Hey, I can give u warmth in here.”
Ruki smiles naughty. He bring nearer his face to Uruha’s face. Uruha is blushing. Ruki pulled Uruha’s chin slowly and they are face to face now. Ruki nearer his face more and more. Then, he sucked Uruha’s soft lips. He was too swing and didn’t aware there’s something that flowing from Uruha’s mouth. He didn’t aware that Uruha dropped his tears too. During a french kiss, Ruki never open his eyes to knew what happened with his beloved man.
Suddenly, Uruha was down. He almost fallen. With his strong, he tried to held his hurt body. He didn’t want to Ruki knew what did happened of him. He didn’t want to Ruki sad. But, when he held his body more and more, he feels his hurt more. His eyes fade away.
Ruki : “ Oh my God! Uruha, what’s wrong with you?!” Ruki is really shocked seeing Uruha floppy in front of him. He’s gonna hugged Uruha’s body that has snap. He just to know that there’s blood patch in around his lips.
Ruki : “ a blood? Where’s came from?” he upward Uruha’s head and he found a blood that very much in covered Uruha’s mouth. He found a tears left in that cheek’s beautiful man.
Ruki : “ God, how this is happened?! Uru, how.. you..” Ruki speak not fluently and restrain his tears. He’s gonna carried Uruha to his Apartment. His mind very disorder. He still didn’t understand what’s wrong with his fiancé actually.
***
Ruki’s Pov
I’ve waiting him as three hours. But, still nothing changed. He still asleep in that bed with illness face. I took my handphone in my pocket pants. I seeing my watch in my hand.
“ Hh.. where are they?” I speak with out of breath.
I’m waiting my friends coming and want to know Uruha’s condition. I’ve waiting them so long, but they are not showed bridge of their nose. “ Do they’ll not to come?” I speak in my mind. My heart is confusion. I’m covering scared and sadness in my heart.
“ Ruki!”
Someone called me. I’m shock and wake up from my chair. I just seeing him weakly.
He walking fast up at me. I saw his face which fully worried. A tall man with black hair clap my shoulder rugged.
“ Ru, what’s wrong? What happened with Uru?!” He speak panic.
I just shake of my head.
“ Hey, I need your answer. Not your head shake! Hurry, answer me!” that man touched my shoulder and quaking my body with anger. Actually, I was little annoyed with his attitude. I’m gonna keep his hand and seeing him deeply.
“ I’m still wonder what happened with him! I’m not yet believe...” I stop my words. I seeing that man still waiting continuance from what that I want to tell to him.
“ not yet..” he crumpled my shoulder. He seems want to knew my explained fast.
“ Aoi, enough! I don’t want to tell it now! I’m still worried with Uru’s condition! I’m...”
“Did you think that I didn’t worried, didn’t you?” that man who names Aoi saw me sharp. I take to saw him back sharp too.
Trap.. trap.. trap..
I heard some step walking fast up at us. I look up at sounds and saw two another friends
“ how did with his condition?” a man with a blonde hair and covering his nose ask to me. I’m still shake of my head.
“ Don’t you ask him, Reita! We are better asking to a doctor who handle Uruha!” Aoi saw me sharp. I just take a a bow weakly.
“ hey, enough! Don’t fighting here! Ah, that is Uru?” a man who names Reita throw his eyes to Uruha’s room. He just shake of head. He saw sad in behind his cloth which covering his nose.
“ whereas, your wedding...” my another friend speak lowly.
“ Stop it Kai! I don’t wanna thinking about it!” I’m angry. My mind is really disorder that night. I don’t want to talk with anyone. I want to alone.
“ I’m sorry. I just..”
“ No. it’s okay. Never mind. I’m sorry Kai..” I’m smiling thin to Kai. He feels not comfortable with his attitude. But, I don’t think so long. I don’t want to made worst my condition with this.
I decided to going out from hospital for buying some drink. When, I’ll gonna to go, Reita held me and said that he want to follow me. And finally, I’m going out with him. Kai and Aoi still keep Uru in hospital.
As a corridor we just silent words. My mind still worried with Uru’s condition. I don’t know what Reita’s mind. Maybe same with me? Or thinking other something? I don’t want to know more. I’m balancing my step with him.
“ You are really to get marry?” a sound hard from Reita break my silent.
“ Ah, you don’t like a Kai, I don’t want to tell about this.” I speak unware.
“ No. I mean.. He is a man. Same with me, with you...” Reita speak lowly. He afraid will hurt my heart.
“ Then?” I’m still speak unware.
“ Hhh.. It’s okay. I just want to sure that you are..”
“ I love him. “ I’m cutting his speak.
“ Maybe seems weird. But, I really love him. Just with him make me comfortable and happy. This is my decide. I don’t care with everyone who seeing us a poof or anything. I..”
“ Ok. I see Ru. I don’t seeing you are a poof and weird. I just afraid, if you doing this because you have a traumatic with a woman. “ Reita turning cut my speak. I’m laughing seeing him. I’m laughing him because I guess his speak very funny.
“ Hey, why you laughing?” Reita saw me with confused.
“ Hahaha. No, a little funny. I don’t have a traumatic with a woman. I just decide my heart to Uruha.” I speak clearly.
We are through to walk until found a gate hospital. Reita give me a signal to me hurry up my step. When we arrived in there, we’ll gonna buying some drink and snack for us in hospital.
***
Uruha’s PoV
I saw a ceiling that I was stay. I’m headache. My eyes is blurring. I tried to called name a someone who I need now.
“ Ru..ki..” my voice is choke. I feel something weight to bring my body wake up from here.
“ Hey, Uru. Don’t move..” someone be in besides me. He held me to wake up.
“ Where is I am? Ruki.. where is he?” I ask him and still tried to wake up.
“ You are in the hospital. Don’t talk to much. Hey, don’t move!” He was seen panic.
“ I want to back home! I want to back home! Where is Ruki? I want to back home!” I’m struggling wilder. I pulled my infuse with rugged until a little blood pushed away in coverlet. I provide my hurt and still tried to struggling.
Suddenly, someone come to me. He is Ruki.
“ Oh my God, Uru. What happened with you?” Ruki throw his items and gonna come to me and quite me.
“ I want to back home. Please, go out me from here!” I’m crying in his arms. I feel to be a fool man.
“ you are still sick hun.. please don’t act mad like this! Listen to me! Oh gosh, what are you doing.. ckckck..” Ruki seeing me sharp and angry because the infuse has loose from my hand.
“ I don’t sick! I’m strong! Please.. I want to marry with you..” I’m making convince Ruki but he just shake of his head.
“ You are sick, hun. Please.. I know, we are got to marry but we didn’t doing that if you still like this.” Ruki force me to lay my body in bed. But, I’m struggling more.
Ruki very confused. He give a sign to Aoi to called a doctor. Aoi is nodding his head and gonna out from this room.
“ I want to back home..” suddenly I feel hurt again. This is amazing hurt. I’m vomit something colored thick red from my mouth. I held Ruki’s arms tightly. I don’t want to lay in this bed again. In my mind, just a way to go out from here.
“ Look at you, Uru. You are still weakly. We can’t marry if u still like this..”
***
Dr. Shou : “ It’s a leukemia.”
Ruki aware from his long mind. He seeing a young doctor that has sitting in front of him.
Ruki : “ Leukemia? Impossible! Ah, I don’t believe it!” Ruki covered his face with his hand to hide his crying. His feeling is true. Uruha have a leukemia. He still tried to has seen stubborn. But, he couldn’t. there is something narrow covered his heart.
Dr. Shou : “ya, and reached stadium three.” He continued his speak and make Ruki can’t stopped his tears more.
Tok.. Tok.. Someone knocked the door and broke the silent between them.
Dr. Shou walk to opened the door. He seeing a suster which standing in front of him with tensely face and want to said something.
Dr. Shou : “ what happened Suster Saga?” ask Dr. Shou to Suster who names Saga.
Suster Saga : “ hmm, a patient in 21 VIP room struggling again. He is screaming. And his friends can’t handle him.
Ruki : “Akh, Uruha.” Ruki wake up from his chair and run away go out passing a doctor and suster which talking.
Dr. Saga and Suster Saga gonna chasing Ruki. And when they arrived in Uruha’s room...
Uruha : “ I don’t sick! I’m okay! Look at me! I can wake up myself, right?” Uruha smiling cute in behind his illness face. Ruki’s heart very slice. He walking slowly come close to Uruha.
Ruki : “ Yes honey. You are okay. We can back home now.” Ruki wipe Uruha’s hair with his hand gently.
Aoi : “ What the..”
Kai : “ Hey, Ru..”
Reita : ...
Three close friends just held their angry when they heard Ruki’s decides. They are didn’t know what happened actually. But, they are didn’t want something worse to Uruha.
Dr. Shou pulled his long breath. He can see Ruki’s condition now. He walking come close to them with calm.
Dr Shou : “ You really want to back home, Mr. Uruha?”
Uruha smiling and nodding his head accept Dr. Shou’s speak. Besides him, Ruki just take a bow with a silent words.
Dr. Shou : “ Okay, Until I check you, you may go to home.”
Ruki shocked heard Dr. Shou’s speak. He never guess this doctor will accept his said. He afraid doing a mistake. While besides him, Uruha seems like happy.
Ruki : “ Doc, “ Ruki swallow his spittle. He is nervous.
Dr. Shou just smiling node and nodding. Guess, Uruha has permitted to back home. He’s gonna prepare a stethoscope and will doing chek up. Ruki with three other friends waiting in front of room.
***
Shou’s PoV
I’m starting to chek up my patient in front of me. This guy seems weakly. But, his light eyes made me feel he is a strong man. I’m perforce allow him to back home because I know his psychology condition. I know that he will tortured if still in this place.
“ Thanks doc..” he smiling to me. I just replied his smiles.
“ Doc, did you know? I will marry with Ruki.” He is smiling again.
I’m shocked. I’m unaware drop my tools. Hh.. I tried to still calm. I saw he shocked with my attitude.
“ what’s wrong, doc?” he is rolls his eyes and confuse.
“ Ah, nothing. Hmm, so, you will marry with Mr. Ruki?” I asking cold.
A pretty man nodding his head. He don’t feel something weird of him.
I just shake of my heads lowly. I’m still checking him. So, I better handle him seriously.
“ Why did you tell him?” now, he starting angry and a little loud his sound.
“ Hh..” I pulled my short breath.
“ You said, he is your fiancé, why you didn’t want to tell him what happened with you?” I continued my speak.
“ But..” He bit his down lip. He seems afraid with something.
“ I’m afraid he will leaves me..”
His words make me annoyed and thinking that he is a mad man. He is said this easily and didn’t feel weird.
“ If he loves you, he didn’t do this.” I’m answer shortly.
“ But..”
“ Hey, listen to me! If you wont he going out and leaves you, you must obedient my statements!” I’m seeing him deeply and he waiting me to continued my speak.
“ You must take some medicine with regularly, and thinking about your happiness with him! Never thinking your sick. Okay?!”
Uruha just nodding his head slowly.
“ Why, you don’t believe that?” I catch his worried face.
“ I’m afraid.”
“ Stop it! Why only feels afraid in your mind?! I’ve said with you. Don’t thinking anything except your happiness with him!” I’m distinct my statements and I’m seeing he is smiling again.
“ Okay. I’ll do it! “ He raise his thumbs at me. I really happy saw his face. I’m speechless seeing his pure face immediately. But fom my deep heart, it’s hurt. Maybe, he is will never hold with his condition. Smiling like this. I hope, he is can reached his happiness with his beloved man.
***
“ Hey, what are you doing?!!” Ruki bite Uruha’s hand which want to drinking some medicine.
“ I just want to take a medicine, Ru..” Uruha throw his face. He is afraid seeing Ruki who saw him sharp and angry.
“ Why did you want to take all? This is wrote you may take one tablet.!” Ruki still angry. He worried Uruha did something who made him in a trouble.
“ Dr. Shou said my illness is getting worse. I think that I should take more tablet than usual. I’m scared. I don’t want to die. Because... I love you..” Uruha is crying. He tried to restraint his tears.
Ruki is gonna aware with his attitude and hugged Uruha immediately. He wipe his hair with full of love.
“ I love you too. But, I didn’t want you act something mad.. I’m really sorry..” Ruki loose his hugged and kiss Uruha’s cheek softly. Uruha just nodding his head slowly.
“ You don’t worried hun, I’m still here with you. Sure, we are marry. You don’t afraid again.” Ruki is smiling to Uruha.
“ But, if suddenly I die and leave you..”
“ Syuuhh.. Don’t say it. “ Ruki saved his index finger in Uruha’s lips.
“ I don’t want to remembering if you are sick. For me, you are my healthy and strong bridge.” Ruki is laughing and hugged Uruha again. Ruki hugged Uruha tightly. His eyes close. He didn’t want to remember that a death will come to pick up his fiancé. A death will bring him to sadness without an end. A death which made him hurt. In deep his heart, he has sincere what will happened to them later.
***
March 25, 2009
Ruki still standing in a bed room which be decorated beautiful. His room with someone who has leaved him forever. He was seen his face in that morning and feel fast aware that Uruha has gone. Why must today? Why must in a special day? Ruki swear in his heart. He still not believe that he was be in a place where Uruha is graved.
Uruha is gone. Leave a hurt which never end. But, Ruki don’t regret all. Because, he decide ownself to still with Uruha as his life and loves him forever. Suddenly, he remember something. When his wedding night, he saw Uruha wearing his wedding dress and locked his door. Ruki saw him from behind a window. He saw Uruha moving his body. Seems like dancing..
I want to marry with him..
Let me dancing with my pain..
Let me still life although until this second..
Let my tears dropped without an end..
Let me dancing to get over my pain..
Let me dancing until I asleep later..
_the end_
Dr, Shou : “Hmm, I’m sorry. I’m really sorry..”
Dr. Shou seems like regret and this has seen from his eyes. In the white room which spread medicines smell, there’re two men is sitting in their mind ownself.
A short man, with a little fat body covered his face with his hand. Once in a while, he pulled a long breath. He seems couldn’t accept Dr. Shou’s speak.
... “ how long time is there, doc?” he spoke and break the silent.
Dr. Shou : ” I don’t know Ruki. Only a week counting, maybe.” this young doctor is really worried waiting response a man who still in front of him.
Ruki : “ what?!!! Why so fast!? Oh no!!”
Ruki shocked with something that Dr. Shou’s tell. He’s sitting again weakly. “ only a week counting.” He spoke in his mind. “ that’s a sign my engaged...”
***
Ruki : “ Hey, where are you going?” Ruki held someone’s hand that he is inviting him to speak. A man just shake of his head slowly.
Ruki : “ Uruha, answer me.” Ruki wiped cheek’s someone who names Uruha gently. And his another hand still held his hand, so that he couldn’t go anywhere.
Uruha : “ Ah, I just looking a fresh air.” He smiles thin. His eyes showed hidden something.
Ruki seeing Uruha deeply. He looking for something that made him wonder. Ruki pulled a short breath and tense his held. Then, he hugged Uruha tightly.
Ruki : “ You can’t lying me, Uru. Tell me, there is something wrong with u?”
Uruha still shake of his head slowly in Ruki’s hugged. He want to run away and leaved Ruki. He want to alone now. Alone and dissolved by something which he is hidden it.
Uruha : “Hmm, I’m gonna to Apartment now, better. Colder in here.” Uruha loose his hugged slowly and touch Ruki’s cheek with his hand.
Ruki : “Hey, I can give u warmth in here.”
Ruki smiles naughty. He bring nearer his face to Uruha’s face. Uruha is blushing. Ruki pulled Uruha’s chin slowly and they are face to face now. Ruki nearer his face more and more. Then, he sucked Uruha’s soft lips. He was too swing and didn’t aware there’s something that flowing from Uruha’s mouth. He didn’t aware that Uruha dropped his tears too. During a french kiss, Ruki never open his eyes to knew what happened with his beloved man.
Suddenly, Uruha was down. He almost fallen. With his strong, he tried to held his hurt body. He didn’t want to Ruki knew what did happened of him. He didn’t want to Ruki sad. But, when he held his body more and more, he feels his hurt more. His eyes fade away.
Ruki : “ Oh my God! Uruha, what’s wrong with you?!” Ruki is really shocked seeing Uruha floppy in front of him. He’s gonna hugged Uruha’s body that has snap. He just to know that there’s blood patch in around his lips.
Ruki : “ a blood? Where’s came from?” he upward Uruha’s head and he found a blood that very much in covered Uruha’s mouth. He found a tears left in that cheek’s beautiful man.
Ruki : “ God, how this is happened?! Uru, how.. you..” Ruki speak not fluently and restrain his tears. He’s gonna carried Uruha to his Apartment. His mind very disorder. He still didn’t understand what’s wrong with his fiancé actually.
***
Ruki’s Pov
I’ve waiting him as three hours. But, still nothing changed. He still asleep in that bed with illness face. I took my handphone in my pocket pants. I seeing my watch in my hand.
“ Hh.. where are they?” I speak with out of breath.
I’m waiting my friends coming and want to know Uruha’s condition. I’ve waiting them so long, but they are not showed bridge of their nose. “ Do they’ll not to come?” I speak in my mind. My heart is confusion. I’m covering scared and sadness in my heart.
“ Ruki!”
Someone called me. I’m shock and wake up from my chair. I just seeing him weakly.
He walking fast up at me. I saw his face which fully worried. A tall man with black hair clap my shoulder rugged.
“ Ru, what’s wrong? What happened with Uru?!” He speak panic.
I just shake of my head.
“ Hey, I need your answer. Not your head shake! Hurry, answer me!” that man touched my shoulder and quaking my body with anger. Actually, I was little annoyed with his attitude. I’m gonna keep his hand and seeing him deeply.
“ I’m still wonder what happened with him! I’m not yet believe...” I stop my words. I seeing that man still waiting continuance from what that I want to tell to him.
“ not yet..” he crumpled my shoulder. He seems want to knew my explained fast.
“ Aoi, enough! I don’t want to tell it now! I’m still worried with Uru’s condition! I’m...”
“Did you think that I didn’t worried, didn’t you?” that man who names Aoi saw me sharp. I take to saw him back sharp too.
Trap.. trap.. trap..
I heard some step walking fast up at us. I look up at sounds and saw two another friends
“ how did with his condition?” a man with a blonde hair and covering his nose ask to me. I’m still shake of my head.
“ Don’t you ask him, Reita! We are better asking to a doctor who handle Uruha!” Aoi saw me sharp. I just take a a bow weakly.
“ hey, enough! Don’t fighting here! Ah, that is Uru?” a man who names Reita throw his eyes to Uruha’s room. He just shake of head. He saw sad in behind his cloth which covering his nose.
“ whereas, your wedding...” my another friend speak lowly.
“ Stop it Kai! I don’t wanna thinking about it!” I’m angry. My mind is really disorder that night. I don’t want to talk with anyone. I want to alone.
“ I’m sorry. I just..”
“ No. it’s okay. Never mind. I’m sorry Kai..” I’m smiling thin to Kai. He feels not comfortable with his attitude. But, I don’t think so long. I don’t want to made worst my condition with this.
I decided to going out from hospital for buying some drink. When, I’ll gonna to go, Reita held me and said that he want to follow me. And finally, I’m going out with him. Kai and Aoi still keep Uru in hospital.
As a corridor we just silent words. My mind still worried with Uru’s condition. I don’t know what Reita’s mind. Maybe same with me? Or thinking other something? I don’t want to know more. I’m balancing my step with him.
“ You are really to get marry?” a sound hard from Reita break my silent.
“ Ah, you don’t like a Kai, I don’t want to tell about this.” I speak unware.
“ No. I mean.. He is a man. Same with me, with you...” Reita speak lowly. He afraid will hurt my heart.
“ Then?” I’m still speak unware.
“ Hhh.. It’s okay. I just want to sure that you are..”
“ I love him. “ I’m cutting his speak.
“ Maybe seems weird. But, I really love him. Just with him make me comfortable and happy. This is my decide. I don’t care with everyone who seeing us a poof or anything. I..”
“ Ok. I see Ru. I don’t seeing you are a poof and weird. I just afraid, if you doing this because you have a traumatic with a woman. “ Reita turning cut my speak. I’m laughing seeing him. I’m laughing him because I guess his speak very funny.
“ Hey, why you laughing?” Reita saw me with confused.
“ Hahaha. No, a little funny. I don’t have a traumatic with a woman. I just decide my heart to Uruha.” I speak clearly.
We are through to walk until found a gate hospital. Reita give me a signal to me hurry up my step. When we arrived in there, we’ll gonna buying some drink and snack for us in hospital.
***
Uruha’s PoV
I saw a ceiling that I was stay. I’m headache. My eyes is blurring. I tried to called name a someone who I need now.
“ Ru..ki..” my voice is choke. I feel something weight to bring my body wake up from here.
“ Hey, Uru. Don’t move..” someone be in besides me. He held me to wake up.
“ Where is I am? Ruki.. where is he?” I ask him and still tried to wake up.
“ You are in the hospital. Don’t talk to much. Hey, don’t move!” He was seen panic.
“ I want to back home! I want to back home! Where is Ruki? I want to back home!” I’m struggling wilder. I pulled my infuse with rugged until a little blood pushed away in coverlet. I provide my hurt and still tried to struggling.
Suddenly, someone come to me. He is Ruki.
“ Oh my God, Uru. What happened with you?” Ruki throw his items and gonna come to me and quite me.
“ I want to back home. Please, go out me from here!” I’m crying in his arms. I feel to be a fool man.
“ you are still sick hun.. please don’t act mad like this! Listen to me! Oh gosh, what are you doing.. ckckck..” Ruki seeing me sharp and angry because the infuse has loose from my hand.
“ I don’t sick! I’m strong! Please.. I want to marry with you..” I’m making convince Ruki but he just shake of his head.
“ You are sick, hun. Please.. I know, we are got to marry but we didn’t doing that if you still like this.” Ruki force me to lay my body in bed. But, I’m struggling more.
Ruki very confused. He give a sign to Aoi to called a doctor. Aoi is nodding his head and gonna out from this room.
“ I want to back home..” suddenly I feel hurt again. This is amazing hurt. I’m vomit something colored thick red from my mouth. I held Ruki’s arms tightly. I don’t want to lay in this bed again. In my mind, just a way to go out from here.
“ Look at you, Uru. You are still weakly. We can’t marry if u still like this..”
***
Dr. Shou : “ It’s a leukemia.”
Ruki aware from his long mind. He seeing a young doctor that has sitting in front of him.
Ruki : “ Leukemia? Impossible! Ah, I don’t believe it!” Ruki covered his face with his hand to hide his crying. His feeling is true. Uruha have a leukemia. He still tried to has seen stubborn. But, he couldn’t. there is something narrow covered his heart.
Dr. Shou : “ya, and reached stadium three.” He continued his speak and make Ruki can’t stopped his tears more.
Tok.. Tok.. Someone knocked the door and broke the silent between them.
Dr. Shou walk to opened the door. He seeing a suster which standing in front of him with tensely face and want to said something.
Dr. Shou : “ what happened Suster Saga?” ask Dr. Shou to Suster who names Saga.
Suster Saga : “ hmm, a patient in 21 VIP room struggling again. He is screaming. And his friends can’t handle him.
Ruki : “Akh, Uruha.” Ruki wake up from his chair and run away go out passing a doctor and suster which talking.
Dr. Saga and Suster Saga gonna chasing Ruki. And when they arrived in Uruha’s room...
Uruha : “ I don’t sick! I’m okay! Look at me! I can wake up myself, right?” Uruha smiling cute in behind his illness face. Ruki’s heart very slice. He walking slowly come close to Uruha.
Ruki : “ Yes honey. You are okay. We can back home now.” Ruki wipe Uruha’s hair with his hand gently.
Aoi : “ What the..”
Kai : “ Hey, Ru..”
Reita : ...
Three close friends just held their angry when they heard Ruki’s decides. They are didn’t know what happened actually. But, they are didn’t want something worse to Uruha.
Dr. Shou pulled his long breath. He can see Ruki’s condition now. He walking come close to them with calm.
Dr Shou : “ You really want to back home, Mr. Uruha?”
Uruha smiling and nodding his head accept Dr. Shou’s speak. Besides him, Ruki just take a bow with a silent words.
Dr. Shou : “ Okay, Until I check you, you may go to home.”
Ruki shocked heard Dr. Shou’s speak. He never guess this doctor will accept his said. He afraid doing a mistake. While besides him, Uruha seems like happy.
Ruki : “ Doc, “ Ruki swallow his spittle. He is nervous.
Dr. Shou just smiling node and nodding. Guess, Uruha has permitted to back home. He’s gonna prepare a stethoscope and will doing chek up. Ruki with three other friends waiting in front of room.
***
Shou’s PoV
I’m starting to chek up my patient in front of me. This guy seems weakly. But, his light eyes made me feel he is a strong man. I’m perforce allow him to back home because I know his psychology condition. I know that he will tortured if still in this place.
“ Thanks doc..” he smiling to me. I just replied his smiles.
“ Doc, did you know? I will marry with Ruki.” He is smiling again.
I’m shocked. I’m unaware drop my tools. Hh.. I tried to still calm. I saw he shocked with my attitude.
“ what’s wrong, doc?” he is rolls his eyes and confuse.
“ Ah, nothing. Hmm, so, you will marry with Mr. Ruki?” I asking cold.
A pretty man nodding his head. He don’t feel something weird of him.
I just shake of my heads lowly. I’m still checking him. So, I better handle him seriously.
“ Why did you tell him?” now, he starting angry and a little loud his sound.
“ Hh..” I pulled my short breath.
“ You said, he is your fiancé, why you didn’t want to tell him what happened with you?” I continued my speak.
“ But..” He bit his down lip. He seems afraid with something.
“ I’m afraid he will leaves me..”
His words make me annoyed and thinking that he is a mad man. He is said this easily and didn’t feel weird.
“ If he loves you, he didn’t do this.” I’m answer shortly.
“ But..”
“ Hey, listen to me! If you wont he going out and leaves you, you must obedient my statements!” I’m seeing him deeply and he waiting me to continued my speak.
“ You must take some medicine with regularly, and thinking about your happiness with him! Never thinking your sick. Okay?!”
Uruha just nodding his head slowly.
“ Why, you don’t believe that?” I catch his worried face.
“ I’m afraid.”
“ Stop it! Why only feels afraid in your mind?! I’ve said with you. Don’t thinking anything except your happiness with him!” I’m distinct my statements and I’m seeing he is smiling again.
“ Okay. I’ll do it! “ He raise his thumbs at me. I really happy saw his face. I’m speechless seeing his pure face immediately. But fom my deep heart, it’s hurt. Maybe, he is will never hold with his condition. Smiling like this. I hope, he is can reached his happiness with his beloved man.
***
“ Hey, what are you doing?!!” Ruki bite Uruha’s hand which want to drinking some medicine.
“ I just want to take a medicine, Ru..” Uruha throw his face. He is afraid seeing Ruki who saw him sharp and angry.
“ Why did you want to take all? This is wrote you may take one tablet.!” Ruki still angry. He worried Uruha did something who made him in a trouble.
“ Dr. Shou said my illness is getting worse. I think that I should take more tablet than usual. I’m scared. I don’t want to die. Because... I love you..” Uruha is crying. He tried to restraint his tears.
Ruki is gonna aware with his attitude and hugged Uruha immediately. He wipe his hair with full of love.
“ I love you too. But, I didn’t want you act something mad.. I’m really sorry..” Ruki loose his hugged and kiss Uruha’s cheek softly. Uruha just nodding his head slowly.
“ You don’t worried hun, I’m still here with you. Sure, we are marry. You don’t afraid again.” Ruki is smiling to Uruha.
“ But, if suddenly I die and leave you..”
“ Syuuhh.. Don’t say it. “ Ruki saved his index finger in Uruha’s lips.
“ I don’t want to remembering if you are sick. For me, you are my healthy and strong bridge.” Ruki is laughing and hugged Uruha again. Ruki hugged Uruha tightly. His eyes close. He didn’t want to remember that a death will come to pick up his fiancé. A death will bring him to sadness without an end. A death which made him hurt. In deep his heart, he has sincere what will happened to them later.
***
March 25, 2009
Ruki still standing in a bed room which be decorated beautiful. His room with someone who has leaved him forever. He was seen his face in that morning and feel fast aware that Uruha has gone. Why must today? Why must in a special day? Ruki swear in his heart. He still not believe that he was be in a place where Uruha is graved.
Uruha is gone. Leave a hurt which never end. But, Ruki don’t regret all. Because, he decide ownself to still with Uruha as his life and loves him forever. Suddenly, he remember something. When his wedding night, he saw Uruha wearing his wedding dress and locked his door. Ruki saw him from behind a window. He saw Uruha moving his body. Seems like dancing..
I want to marry with him..
Let me dancing with my pain..
Let me still life although until this second..
Let my tears dropped without an end..
Let me dancing to get over my pain..
Let me dancing until I asleep later..
_the end_
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